To someone I respect

I am sorry, I was suppose to be updating about my trip to hk but I don't think I have the mood to do it now.

My cousin, Jini was admitted to ICU few days ago, result says her body was infected by bacteria, and what worst was, the bacteria irrupted into her brain and caused her unconscious for a while. Unfortunately, she fell asleep deeply and never awake again since yesterday. She left all her dearests behind and begin a new life in another blissful place where we call it heaven.

She is always my role model. Good in both academic and extra curricular activities, got flying colors in all Malaysia's evaluation tests and got her degree/master in UM, successfully got a job in an infamous petrol retail company with a high level manager position, happily married with someone who is so lovable to her and her family. She grew up in an incomplete family but yet she is so well grown up and become a very successful lady who own everything I want the most. The thing I like the most about her is her personality, she was so humble, caring, lovely and filial piety to her parents. She was the type of Good daughter, good friend that everyone loves her. 

Her sudden leave bring the deepest sorrow in our family, its so sudden that  I do not know how to express my emotion now, its all mixed up and complicated. I feel so bad, feel so bad for her mother, her sisters, her husband and even for this community of losing her.

I cannot sleep at all, her special laughing voice, her appearance, the way she smile, everything is playing vividly on my mind. This new is totally unacceptable, I hope I wake up in the morning to realize that this was just a nightmare but I know I have to accept the fact and moving on. She is still so young, why was she the one who got infection but not those baddies!

I miss her already, I miss how she shared her experiences with me, I miss how she was such a good example for us to learn and be a better person.

Rest in peace Jini che che, may you have a much better life in another world which you don't have to suffer any more pain, please watch over to your loved ones especially aunt, Linda, Nita che che and Abang Irman, may the four of them stay strong during this rough phase. Such a pleasure to had you in our life, you will be sorely missed by everyone of us.

love,

SiewYi