My family......

Had a heart-to-heart talk with Ying today.
We talked bout friends, we talked bout family.....

Flashing back at the time when i was small, i always grumbled about my parents only treated my sis better, because she is 3 years younger than me and as i am the eldest child at home, i have to take care of the little ones, share what i have and all the priorities are given to the little sis first than I....

Due to these factors, jealousy produced, i even gave vent to the little one (not to the stage of outrage, of course), it was just something bad that i choose not to mention about it here, just something tend to "bully"! >< it's all because of i felt my attention from parents had been deprived away by her.... but she never ever try to dispute over me, as she's still small that time *i think* haha! how pity is it to be my sister. But for sure, thing does change as we growing up, now only i realized how great is it to have sisters. I have TWO! One is 16 n one is only 7! Miss them lots~

Back to my parents, to get more their attention when i was small, i work really hard on studies, and i was only 8yrs old, see, the "kiasu" attitude of me! It's really work though, haha! But slowly when i turned to a teen, i became a devil! Don't know what happened to me at the time, i never had the heart to study, so my results in secondary school was really terrible!
There were many arguments between my mom n I, i think many of my friends knew bout it, i always complaint bout my mom, we have different opinions, and my mom is a business woman, she's sure stand strong on her side, never listen to what i want to explain about, just a "shut up, you're wrong" then everything finished! But I'm really wrong that always slapped the door, always disputes, did many things to made her worried and angry, there were always disappointment for her and for dad! -I'm so sorry-

Now, when i was away from home, only i realized how stupid am i, i was very regret for not being a good daughter for the past, and now only know how much love from my parents to me, how much they care bout me and how cute are my sisters... I still remember what my mom told me before i came to Kampar, she wants me to take good care of myself since she cannot see me everyday, she even said she worried so much of me to her friend somemore... gosh~ see, i know she loves me! lol!

Anyway, the only thing i want to do now is study Hard Hard to achieve their expectation on me, and be a good example for my sis.... Study hard and take care of myself is what my parents look for, isn't? And, a big bear hug n "Thank You" will be give to them when i step on Sandakan on 9th Feb! stay tune~ ^^